230 days to the Ironman. 30 weeks.When I started training 170 days ago my spirits were high. I thought I could walk on water. Now the anxiety over my knee has reached so high, that I had to go back to therapy. Once I got my head on straight, it was time to work on my body. I thought if I took 10 days off, my knee would feel better. It did...until I ran. Then it was the same old story. First mile was fine. Second was pressure on the interior area below the cap. Third the pressure increased. Fourth, it became pain that moved to the top of the cap. The fifth the pain moved back to the place it started.
So now what? Back to see the surgeon who will say one of two things: It is fixable in PT or It is fixable in surgery PT will be a good thing. I will take 6 weeks to repair the problem. I know I have been there before. I had a frozen shoulder and PTed it for months, but did 4 races that year Surgery is the big question: How long will it take to recover? Did I tear something? is there loose cartilage floating around? Cartilage means a scope inserted into the knee and a few weeks off my feet. A tear is 12 weeks of rest and PT. Can I spare 12 weeks? Can I do it in 18 weeks?
I BELIEVE I CAN...but I keep hearing a little voice in my mind...what if???
What if I this knee is more than a running problem?
What if it is a problem on the bike?
How much can this 42 year old body take?
How far can I push it?
How much pain can I endure?
When the surgeon looked at the X-ray, he said the one word that makes the led weight sink to the bottom of your stomach if you are a triathlete. Actually, he said a whole bunch of words, but the only one I heard was "tear." The X-Ray had a fuzzy whiteness on the side of my knee. To me it looked like...fuzzy whiteness, but I didn't spend a dozen years studying muscles and bones. It could be a meniscus tear, it might just be an inflamed muscle. Time to go for an MRI. In I go and out to sleep I go. Thirty minutes later, wake me up and send me home and wait...
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